There’s so much I want to do with my life, that finding an individual career seems kind of boring to me. Although I’m not sure where I want to go in my life exactly, I know what I don’t want my life turning into.
I don’t want a typical 9-5 office job sitting behind a computer and phone at some meaningless office.
I don’t want to go home every day and know that I should be elsewhere.
I don’t want to settle for the easy job, because I’ve given up on the dreams I have inside me.
I don’t want to go to bed each night in the same place knowing my gifts and talents are being wasted.
I know this may seem like I’m complaining, maybe I am. I just know that my life and all that Jesus is doing in me isn’t meant for a crap 9-5 job where I’m not impacting peoples lives with the love of Jesus. When I look at my life and all the dreams I’ve had as a child, all those have come true; just in a different way than what I was expecting.
Probably my biggest dream I’ve had since I was 5 was to be a singer and musician. I’m strong enough in myself to admit I was a pro at mirror concerts, and my fans (My stuffed animals and Barbie dolls) loved me. I remember begging my mom for voice lessons so I could send in my demos (that I never made lol) into all the big time record labels in New York City. But over time I settled for other dreams that seemed more reachable; yet they weren’t as fullfilling to me. But it’s cool how God works to make your hearts desire come true. No, I’m not famous and traveling the world touring (although now I wouldn’t want fame) but I am a musician and I do get to play and sing on stage, just for a completely different reason. Now I sing and play to worship God. I’m not up there for me and self fulfillment. That’s not what playing music is about for me any more. My music is all about Him and that gives me so much joy that I can’t even put into words.
Seeing how Jesus reignited that love of music in me and used it to not only glorify Him but to bring others into relationship with Him and to get them to enter in to His presence through the power of worship gives me hope that my other dreams, dreams He recently placed on my heart, will come to pass; if they’re His will.
Like I said before, there’s so much I want to do with my life, that a typical 9-5 job just wouldn’t satisfy me.
I have such a heart to see young people fall in love with their Creator. And God is moving in our area. I love looking out in worship and seeing the young people I work with in total surrender to their God. It never fails to bring a smile to my face seeing them entering into His presence. So my dream for the next generation that is rising up to take their place in the body of Christ is to see them in such an intimate relationship with Jesus. I long to see them radically and passionately living their lives to see Heaven meet earth. It’s one thing to see full grown adults love Jesus, but I truly believe that the impact of seeing hundreds or thousands of young people still in elementary school, middle school, high school and even college loving Jesus and His people in such a radical/ Biblical way speaks volumes to unbelievers.
I long to see these kids rise up and take initiative in their schools and families. To see them serving the community and those in need just to show the love of Christ to those around them. To see them not be distracted by all this world has to offer them, but to stand firm in their faith and not be shaken by distractions.
I’ve really been feeling on my heart the past month or so that God is calling us to raise up a generation of revivalists. Don’t know what a revivalist is?
Revivalist: (n) a believer who is
focused and passionate, willing to pay any price to live in purity and power because they are loved by God and love Him – whose manifest presence transforms lives and cultures.
Will this dream come true? I can’t say for certain, but I do know that I pray for His will to be done in my life and the lives of those around me, so if it is His will, well… This sure is going to be one insanely crazy/amazing ride 😀