I Feel So Alone

Posted: January 10, 2011 in Uncategorized

I think I’ve touched on this subject before, but I just keep coming back to it in my mind. You hear people sometimes say, “I feel so alone. Like nobody is in my life who can help me out in this situation”. I myself have even been there before. As you know if you’ve been reading this blog since the beginning, I once struggled with self injury in the most common form, which is cutting. That was a factor due to the depression which I hid from almost everyone in my life up until a year or so ago. I’m not being insensitive towards anyone, I’m only speaking from my own life and experiences. But, the feeling of being alone or even abandoned, doesn’t have to be so.

For me, I chose to be alone. The cutting made me feel dirty and worthless, but when you think about it, we escalate things like this in our mind. When I first told someone that I was cutting, they of course were a good friend of mine who I trusted more than anyone; their reaction wasn’t anything at all like I had imagined it would be. There was no freaking out, no crying or yelling at me for being self destructive. Actually, they remained pretty calm, and of course the questions started coming. But that’s a whole different topic. Telling that one person, began giving me accountability. They knew the signs now, and truth be told they’re pretty blunt signs that aren’t hard at all to read, and when they saw signs they’d question me. It sounds bad, like an episode of Law and Order, but it’s actually the best thing I ever did. I tell you this, to give you hope.

You may feel alone in this, but that’s all in your head. Let someone in. Share your story and your struggles with a close friend of yours. It’s up to you to let someone in, and not be alone. Mental isolation, telling yourself that you’re alone, can lead to a physical isolation from people who love you in your life. You’re never truly alone, you have to make the choice of letting certain people in your life in.


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