First Day Back.

Posted: January 22, 2010 in Uncategorized

Today I went back to work for the first time since getting layed off early December. I’m not sure why but going back this morning, it felt different.

I was so excited to see the people I work with, I didn’t realize how much I enjoyed their company until I no longer saw them everyday. I became friends with one of the girls that I work with, and I was so excited to see her today. Christmas she dropped off a gift on my front door that had a note with it. All it said was Jessica, I miss you; but it made me cry. I never noticed I was missing these people. When our day started I was so excited to see everyone, even the people I didn’t really like before it was so nice to see them.

Like I said before though, it felt different this morning at work. The last time I was at work, I was in a really bad place. It’s funny, but I really think God took me out of that environment at that time for a reason. I had so many things I was dealing with (and things I was avoiding dealing with) at that time, and being alone at work all day seemed to amplify it. I would spend all day just letting the thoughts fester in my mind and just think about everything over and over again. Really unhealthy stuff.

I think God stepped in and took me out of control from the situation. I can’t say I know why He did it that way, but I’m thankful that He did. All the timing was just adding up so right this time. The week after losing my job, I met with my accountability person and went through renouncing. That day I really felt God pulling me to spend time with Him. Not just for a day. He was telling me to spend time with Him EVERY day. So that’s what I did. I prayed and read everyday.

I was being focused on Him constantly. I never spent so much time just thinking about Him and talking to him, since I was first saved back in ’08.

I can’t say with 100% confidence, but I’m almost certain God had this all planned for me.

Today felt like one of those “fresh start” kind of days. It all felt new. No bad thought filled my head, it was all just still. I never thought I’d say this about work, but today was a great day.


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